Today I feel tired. I am dedicated to breastfeeding for as long as meatball wants to, but I have to say it can get exhausting. As you know from my earlier post “I should just start moo-ing” I pump at work, every day 2x a day, faithfully. I never miss a lactation break, I wash and sterilize my pump parts at the end of each day. I carefully pack away my pump in the evening and set it up every morning. At any given moment (Monday-Friday) I’m toting around breast milk in a little cooler bag. I haven’t been able to use my cute small/mid sized purses because I have to lug milk and pumping accessories around (although I do have a really nice large bag, it doesn’t change the fact that it’s quite large and bulky). What I’m getting at is that this routine is getting tiring. Lately, I’ve been feeling super exhausted of and annoyed with pumping. The sound of the pump gets on my nerves. The sight of the black and yellow bag makes me cringe a little. I was so good and patient with pumping until a couple of weeks ago. I know that meatball loves my milk, so I won’t quit on her needs, but man, oh man, is this hard. It’s takes more than simple dedication. It takes sheer force of will. These are the things no one tells you about breastfeeding and extended breastfeeding. It’s a freaking pain in the ass at times. But meatball is worth the temporary aggravation.
And with that…I’m off to guess what????